Listen woman! It feels like you're terrorizing my life!
Get a grip will you! You don't show it but you LEAK IT OUT like a sewer pipe that had burst!
I can definitely feel that! I'm more sensitive thanmost people out there.

BBQ is in a few days time... I have not booked a pit... I'll ask either Silas or Jacky to do that for me...

Then... UT is around the corner... I have not done ANY revision AT ALL T_T... I think I'm done for. Quite a lot of my friends are going for Halloween parties and stuff... I'm not going. Not that I'm scared or anything... I'm just... not in to this kind of things... But I do like to party.

Right now, I feel so depressed. I feel like throwing toilet roll in the air as confetti and plastic bags filled with air to make balloons. I don't care how childhood deprived I sound right now. Those are the things I want to do badly. Just so I can drive the blues away. I've been feeling blue lately... anyway...

SCHOOL OS SUCH A DRAG! I guess the only few reasons I go to school is because of amazing friends and I get time away from home. My class is getting smaller and smaller by the day... I'm not sure if it is because of the lessons or because of the faci... If it's the faci, well, tough luck faci! No matter how hard you try to make us like you, it won't happen.

Tonight, I'll have a run down on things that needs to be done tomorrow... Including RETURNING the Cafe Uniform to work... Yes. Did I not tell you I did cafe on Sunday and got hurt? My right hand has a black mark that was kindly given by the steam wand. My left thumb was...cooked(?) by the very hot milk bubbles. It still hurts till today. I hope will get better soon my next week. I really hope it will. I can hardly sleep properly witht he wounds...

I can't help but think about how you feel towards me... I think you know how I feel towards you... I'd kill to have an entire day with you...

If you need anyone to talk to, I'll be around to lend you an ear. I won't give you opinions or advice unless you ask for it. I'll be there as a stress ball. You know you can tell me anything.

I feel giddy.
I'm having sore throat.
Been feeling giddy for the past few days actually. Just. never knew the reason...
Was sent off early from work. My managers were scared that I pengsan.
Simon thinks it's probably due to low blood pressure.
I'm not too sure either...

I know know why you don't like me...
But that doesn't give you any REASON or EXCUSE to not like me...
The only reason why I don't like you is because you don't like me for a stupid reason...
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So, I skipped two days worth of school on Monday and Tuesday.
Worth it? Not exactly actually... missed my classmates.
But i definitely didn't miss my faci... I really don't like her...
However, I will turn up for her class... Hopefully for a full day instead of partial-ing...

The things that has been going on in school...
Well, let's just say that it's been interesting. Yesterday was a revelation...
Tuesday was, quite embarrassing... Monday, nothing interesting...I think...

Yesterday, after he told me about something that I have been wondering for a long time, i wanted to cry. I really did. But, i know I can't. Not in front of him at least...

I wonder... Do your peeps know about this?

You're my strength and my weakness...
I love how you looked the other day...
Flawless... absolutely flawless...
So my heart stopped when I saw you looking like that.
Never thought you could look even more handsome than you already are.
When you bathed in the sunlight, you looked like an angel.
An angel sent for me? Probably.

I seriously cannot get your image out of my head since then.
ARGH! I must be going crazy!
I really have to stop making my thoughts drift to you.
I can't concentrate. I really can't.

Oh boy, I've got it bad...
Really baaadd...

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was seriously stunned yesterday...
absolutely stunned...
I was rendered helpless when he did THAT!

Not that i'm complaining... It was a good feeling...
But... erm, that was pretty unexpected...

HOWEVER!

My dear, how could you ask about my WAIST SIZE?
That is a very sensitive question to ask a girl.
Another is about her age(especially if she is older than 21) and her weight...
It was pretty much embarrassing when you asked me that question...

I finally felt that I have found the one...
I love everything about him...
He is perfectly imperfect...
He makes me smile, he makes me laugh.
He makes me sad, he makes me angry.
He's playful and cheeky. The kind that can make you swoon a million times over.
I love it when he smiles, I love it when he complains.

I do get jealous when he's out there laughing with his friends having a good time. But who am I to stop him from grabbing his own happiness...

He smells like a mixture of things. From soap to nature. I love it. Makes me feel calm and safe.
When he touches me, I could have sworn that my heart skipped more than one beat. A single touch alone could render me helpless. When he talks to me, everything just fades away. It's just me and him...

Alas, could this all be just a dream?

I can't help but think at times, when he comes to me for attention, is it purely because he needs it or because I'm just the other person he goes to for comfort. If his friends are not around, am I just another play thing?

Does he appreciate the things that I do for him? Does he appreaciate it with all of his heart? I'm not just someone he could use to get all the things he wants right?

Wish as I might, for him to be mine, I try all my might to stay by his side...

He is the most beautiful disaster that ever happened to me. And if this were to fade away, at least I know that it lasted this long. I would love it if he feels the same way as I. Because as far as I can see, he's entire being is my mind day and night.

I'm terrified to tell him how I feel about him. But then again, he might have known all this while. Just didn't say a word of it to me at all...

I pray and pray so hard everyday, for his safety and his health. So that no matter how things change, I'll still be able to see him, whether close by me or from afar...

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My thoughts for a certain someone who gave me wire roses...

Yesterday...

Work was like a bitch. There were like many many customers to deal with and I had a crew member who is not willing to do his work properly - that is what I feel anyway. With the things that he said, he made it seem like a job is like a game.

I get it! You want to enjoy yourself at work as well but at the same time you have to be serious about this. If you don't want to practice or do your work properly, you might as well don't come to work and just go study. He is the first crew member that I raised my voice at. I hope to not do that anymore. It wasn't a good feeling to be scolding another one of your work mate. But I had no choice.

I think zhi xin was starting to get a bit fed up as well. Speaking of Zhi Xin, that poor boy. It was raining on him since he came to work. And somehow, it got worse at night. I'm thinking that he's very tired. I haven't seen him in a while. More like a long while, like, a month? I hope we do get to work together again next week. It is always fun working with him. =)

I had awesome fun talking to you early in the morning at 1am... Let's do that again...

So, PP is sent~

AND PP IS APPROVED~!!!!

Anyway, the promised photos...

Oh and before that, the first week of school was FILLED with random, sweet and funny things~!
I won't tell it all here because later it will be too long... way too long... trust me =)

THE PHOTOS OF RAYA (will only put in some cause the rest is in facebook)

And this one below is from Wei Liang =) how sweet of you~

I know... dun complain... at least I'm still writing okay!

I have fotos to upload, schedule to make... PP TO SUBMIT!

Speaking of PP...

I asked if he wanted to do PP with me, he said can. Morning, give him a wake up call...
I gave him the wake up call only to find out that he didnt sleep the whole night...
Then when i reached school, i waited and called him 5 times...
at 12 plus, i saw him online...

Hours later, he called me back to explain. I forgave him.

This sunday do PP... I'm not expecting much.

I was just glad that he returned my call(s) to apologize and make it up to me. =)
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Ah~! FOTOS~!!

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